Postpartum

Its really unbelievable how impacting my birth has been to me.  There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about it.  I don't even know why!  It really is a 'rite of passage' as they say.  God has been so good to me.  The first week after I kept saying to myself, "Man, I really feel God's love for me!"  It was such a great feeling.  I was on a high that whole week.  

The first week after I had the baby my mom was here to help.  I am so thankful for her help because my body definitely needed time to heal and regain strength.  One night I got tired just from rocking the baby.  I can't believe he's going to be one month old tomorrow....my how time flies.  We did Jack's dedication the week after he was born.  That was the most wonderful night!  We had my parents, brother, sister, and sister-in-law...along with Brent's dad and brother all there to believe with us as we 'publicly' dedicated Jack's life to God.  We promised to raise him in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.  I had been struggling with some fears about the baby for  a few days.  The world is always trying to put fear in the hearts of parents!  It was seeming like everything is harmful to babies and regardless of what you do you're going to mess your child's health up.  Rev. Stutz did the dedication and he had Brent put his hands on me and Jack and Rev. Stutz did the same thing then he began to pray for Jack's life.  Right when he started praying I got so peaceful and even teared up!  Without knowing, Rev. Stutz was praying for the EXACT things that were weighing on my mind.  Having him pray for the specific things that were bothering me and also having the believing of my family in the room, it allowed me to release any fears I had--to God be the glory, GREAT things He hath done :).  We then heard from God and it was AWESOME.  Rev. Stutz was inspired to say that God would cause Jack to be great in all men's sight as he does the Word.  WoW!  He also promised His love and protection all the days of his life.  I have never been so comforted by a manifestation in all my life!  

I am thankful to God everyday for Jack.  It is a crazy realization to know that I am raising a child of God!!  What a privilege.  I suppose I'm really a grown up now haha.  I have received many compliments that I am very calm for being a first time mom.  I think I am so calm because Jack is such a good baby!  Whenever he fusses it is normally just to eat.  He's so easy--it blesses me:).  Today I started my workout routine with Johnny Boy.  Nicole very lovingly will watch Jack while John and I go to my gym to workout.  I am so thankful for this because I have a lot of weight to lose.  I gained 50 lbs, lost 20 in the first day, and lost 10 more over the course of the first month.  I am planning to run a 5k with my family in August.  We are all joking about how we are going to be the next Keotteritz family running races together.  I've never ran a race before so that should be fun...actually I don't know if fun is the word but it will help me accomplish my goal of losing weight!